3:07 PM
Most Hell Week of BMT finished!!Thank God for His grace to me during the field camp aka hell week for the past few days from Monday to Saturday!
Initially I thought that I would not make it for the field camp as in will fall out or report sick... Initially I thought that it will be really 6 days 5 nights of living hell.. But the hell part is mainly the digging of shell scrap part on day 3... It's really a living hell until my bunkmates noticed that I dig until I somehow literately cry, and best thing was, during the break for that segment, we received letters from our love ones, and I just couldn't stop crying... Field camp got its fun part and also living hell part lar...
Thank God for the rain also although I initially don't want and expect the rain to happen, because if not I think I would already reported sick due to severe heat rash and all the shit stuff, and need to redo the field camp again which I DON'T WANT!! Thank God for our good OC because if not for him, 5th night we won't get to step into our heavenly bunk.
Field camp, all in all, is really an eye-opener to me and a new experience and through this, I really learn how to appreciate more things around, even our own bunk, and treat it like our heaven like that...
5 more weeks to POP, almost half of BMT is over, most living hell week is over.. Really looking forward to POP, but meanwhile I really wanna have a enjoyable experience especially with my platoon mates...
Take care and God bless! =)
Victor Lim
Saturday, October 31, 200912:22 PM
2 More Days To Hell Week...Week 3 over, left 6 more weeks to go before end of BMT...
Next week gonna be very hell week, cos of field camp... Last 2 days had IFC, was already hell enough le...
Really need to depend on God even more during the hell week... Need His grace and also strength and love... I can sense that during the hell week i will get even more emotional...
Right now is a 2 days break before going through hell for 6 days and 5 nights... Gonna get myself prepared for it mentally, physically and spiritually...
For the past 3 weeks, I have been struggling with different things such as pull up, and the si bei jia liat SOC obstacles... Although I got support from my section/bunk mates, at times I still felt very discouraged, especially when they already told me my mistakes and I still couldn't overcome it.. At times I felt that I am really a fool in certain ways... Haiz....
Come to think of it, right now I learn to appreciate a lot more things outside, even to my coy line area, the bunks that we sleep at night...
Okay la I gotta stop here for now... Need to go out later for buy stuff and meet friends... All the best for those who will be going through hell in weeks to come...
Victor Lim
Wednesday, October 07, 200910:30 AM
New Phase of my life...Okay... This is it... This is the day... 2pm...
Will update again after my bookout...
Cya all!
Victor Lim
Friday, October 02, 20095:43 PM
Financial IssuesHaiz...
Right now I really feel that money itself can hurt my feelings...
First thing, my pay for the past few months is low...
Second thing, I really got a lot of things that I wanna do with it, but it's always the financial issue that cause the hindering...
And then, because of that and past few weeks I have been meeting people and spending $$$ along the way for transport and food etc, my cash in hand and cash at bank has been depleting, even with the extra allowance that I got from my relatives, it's also somehow used up already...
Before my NS, I have been wanting to meet as many group of friends as possible, but all these means that more $$$ will be gone...
And the fact that my family's financial is just like barely okok only, makes me sometimes feel very bad when I look at other people...
I always longing wanted to travel to places like Hong Kong, and everytime I said that I wanna save up $$$ to go, it always failed in the end? Why? The expenses in the end will go to necessities such as food and transportation, and in the end, my savings equals to no saving at all...
At times, when I see others having the luxury to do things that I can't afford to do and like to do, I will feel heartbroken... When my parents told me that (quote a example) "F1 is for those rich people to watch one, not for you to watch", deep in my heart, I really felt very heartbroken, and at times, I just think that "why others can do this but I can't?" and hide in a cosy corner and broke down...
Even right now as I blog this entry, I have been trying to control my tears because I'm in a public place now... Right now what I feel like doing is to just hug at someone who really cares at me and cry it all out...
Just couldn't blog any further now......... No mood to type any further....
Haiz...
*sobx*
Labels: thoughts
Victor Lim
Tuesday, September 22, 200911:56 PM
No one is perfect in this world..Yeap... That's with exception of God and His only Son...
Always when I wanna blog about some good things which I blogged till halfway, when I wanna continue it, there is bound to have something at least to stop me from doing that...
Anyway, in this case, there is really a big negative happening around the bus community, but I shall NOT talk anything much about it... What I really wanna say is that in this world, we can't satisfy everyone's (and I mean ALL) expectations and agree with their thoughts etc... This world is really imperfect... Let alone bus community which is a good example.. People have their own reasons to "shoot" or say something unpleasant in a particular way, but not everyone sees the intention and the motive.. and even if they see it, they may not fully understand and treat it with a positive approach... Yes.. Some people maybe too sensitive about certain issues or even certain words, but well.........................
As what 1 of my bus enthusiast friends said to me... " 做好人真难啊！" (In English it means being a nice person is really hard)
Yes... I agree.. and sometimes it may be hard for me to forgive certain people and forget about their past mistakes (and sins as Christians put it this way). For me, I just wanna love the people but hate the sin... As believers of Christ, I believe that all of us are imperfect (me included), and at times, it is because of the various sins that they have, which makes people around them hate them, but in actual fact, I believe that the person itself is innocent, but not the sins that they have.
Sometimes it is really quite a sad thing for me to see such things happening around, when at times they don't wish to have it, and they are the victims when the sin (or rather the devil in Christian context), is the culprit.. Personally I have seen it (and perhaps experience it too?) quite a lot of times, and I pray, especially for my NS, that this kind of things will minimise.
Times when I have made grave mistakes to others, and vice-versa in this case, I find that it is really important for us to still be able to forgive others. Although it may be hard in this case, but these 3 verses from the Bible somehow encourages me, and I hope it encourages you too...
Colossians 3:12-14 (New Living Translation)
12 Since God chose you to be the holy people he loves, you must clothe yourselves with tenderhearted mercy, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience. 13 Make allowance for each other’s faults, and forgive anyone who offends you. Remember, the Lord forgave you, so you must forgive others. 14 Above all, clothe yourselves with love, which binds us all together in perfect harmony.
It is clearly stated already so I just emphasis it in bold and color...
Especially to the believers, let us do some reflection shall we?
- Victor
Labels: bus enthusiasts, prayers, thoughts
Victor Lim
Thursday, August 20, 200910:39 PM
My Reflection for my work in South West CDC (Part 1)Time really flies… 6 more working days and it marks the end of my 6 and a half months in South West CDC…
I dare say that although the pay (salary) of this job for a temp staff is very low, but this is probably the best job exposure that I ever had…
In Part 1, I’m gonna talk about my milestone in South West CDC, as in over the past 6 and a half, what I have been doing (i.e. job scope) and the negative and positive experiences, and also the colleagues and temp staffs/interns that I have..
I first started work on 16th February 2009 (if I remember the date correctly). During the first few days, 1 of my 2 bosses, Christine, gave me a very simple work which is to key in data entry for the Bridge Newsletter related stuffs.
During the first week of my work, I got the chance to attend their monthly staff meeting. It’s a good experience for me as I get to understand more about South West CDC. During that same day as the meeting, there are 2 fires happening (1 at Bukit Batok West Ave 6, the other one at some factory building areas in Jurong area. At the same week, due to shortage of manpower for Exxonmobil Student Transport Bursary presentation ceremony, I was being called up to help. It’s another exposure that I get to experience. Not bad through.
Over the next few weeks, I get to know more colleagues from Corporate Management Department (the department that I worked in) and Project Management Department, and even get to interact with son of Dr Amy Khor, Mayor of South West District. His name is Esmond. He came in to South West CDC a few months before me (under a more good life aka Project Management side), after his ‘A’ Levels, and left on 9th April 2009 if I remembered correctly, for his few weeks of break before his NS life began. I’m actually very blessed to have him around because at that point of time for lunch, most of the time, we are the only 2 guys and the rest are colleagues which are female (not our generation one). In a way I can relate to him easier than others.
As time flies, more workload start to fall upon me… More higher level but sai kang jobs scopes were given to me… At times I did well, but there are (a lot?) of times when my 2 bosses are disappointed with my performance and my behavior in the office. At times, I also felt that I am very useless because I kept disappoint my 2 bosses despite many many chances they gave me as a temp staff. On the positive side, I get to see a lot more things and knowing + experiencing more things as well.
I can say that the 2 event which I love the most is South West CDC Appointment Ceremony 2009 & South West District Meeting 2009.
For South West CDC Appointment Ceremony 2009, I actually get to see the councilors & committee members, including the one who makes me really inspired, his name is Kenny Low (in CHC also, and founder of CHEC). The 2 only things that I regretted not doing is to take the courage to go forward to talk to him, and to take photos by professional photography studio (probably with him). Btw he’s a councilor in South West CDC, under Youth Functional Committee (Youth FC).
After that event, when I went back home, I actually went to add him (Kenny Low) as a friend on Facebook, and knowing that he’s invited for the next event which is South West District Meeting 2009, I send PM (private message) to him about that.
Here comes the South West District Meeting 2009, and I was expecting him to come as what he told me that he should be coming, but in the end, due to something else, he didn’t came. At the district meeting, I get to exposure even more things and get to know even more things at the CDC level. At that same day, I get to interact with another councilor which is also in Youth FC, his name is Terence Quek. He’s also a very nice & friendly person, and is very active also. Through him, I get to know even more about Youth FC and invited me to go for meetings. Just a week ++ back, I actually went to Telok Blangah Youth Executive Meeting (YEC) meeting at Telok Blangah CC as invited by him. It’s really an eye opener for me as I attended the meeting leading by him.
In the next part, I will share about my experience with the NTU & NUS Interns, and things happening during that period of time. Shall end off my first part here…
Labels: work
Victor Lim
Tuesday, August 04, 20099:10 AM
Heartbroken...Felt so hearbroken this morning… I really couldn’t concentrate on my work today…
Right now I just wanna wait till night time comes and after going back home from work, I will just change my attire, and straight away take a bus down to Bukit Timah and walk up the Bukit Timah Hill to the top, and just cry out to Him, seeking Him and asking Him… I just don’t wanna say so much here because it’s supposed to be work time in office, but as I sit down in front of the computer screen, with the scenery view towards the city from the office (26th level of JTC Summit), and sun shining towards me (45 degrees to my left), all the more I really couldn’t concentrate and just don’t feel like doing anything (but this one cannot be escaped especially when my bosses are around).
Right now just wanna pray that God will pull me through this day in office, and won’t get any shooting or scolding from anyone in office…………………… In His most precious name I pray… Amen…
Labels: God
Victor Lim